Do you look for approval from outside? I do, and I hate it. Here’s a case study: my black and white dress.
I have a black and white dress that I love. It’s got big tendricle-like swirls of black on a white background. It’s got a tunic neck and is very loose because I bought it a size too big. You can belt it but I liked it unbelted and loose. I really love it!
The first few times I wore it I got not one compliment. That was sad. But I told myself, “Who cares. Do you like it?” If so, that’s enough.
And then one day I was waiting for a train at the subway and this woman told me she loved my dress. I said thanks and felt good for a minute but then was troubled by feeling good about it. I hate being so reliant upon approval.
So, there’s no moral of the story. Just sharing and trying to be less and less of a people pleaser!
I'm reading a New York times bestseller. It's called The Language of Flowers and it's a novel by Vanessa Diffenbaugh. In Victorian times the language of flowers was used to convey romantic expressions. For example, Acacia for secret love. This novel weaves flowers, foster care, friendship and love into an enchanting tale. I am halfway through and highly recommend as your end of summer book.
She walks like the air
A kind spirit
I see her walking through a meadow of wild flowers
With an old boxy black camera
Hanging from her neck with a multicolored strap
She takes pictures, this one
She likes to capture beauty on film
She is beautiful in my eyes
I like to capture beauty in poems
(Based upon Matthew 11:28)
Sometimes it feels that life is just too hard
I have worked so hard and have little to show for my labors
There is still so much left to be done
I have tried my best and fallen short
I am tired
I had wanted to succeed
Get it all done
But I couldn't
But in God
I have rest
He looks at me with understanding eyes
He says to me
I do not want perfection
I wanted you to try
He absolves me for falling short
He takes my hand
Pulls me up out of my defeat
And leads me to my bed
Where he asks me to lie down and sleep
Tomorrow is another day
You will get up and work hard again
You did good
He stays with me until I fall asleep
I sleep hard and peaceful
And when I awake
He is sitting there by by side
Smiling at me
Gospel music is scripture put to sound.
there's a moment on the subway
where we shoot up from underground
suddenly the darkness is bright
it's a wonderful moment
there are times in our lives like that
after a period of darkness
there is suddenly and finally light
God is always there to offer light to us
no matter how dark it may seem
He is there
He is the light